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Taking Risks

By Kanchan Gautam

On a cold February afternoon, I looked out the window of my airplane and a sort of nervous calm took over me. I was on a flight from North Carolina to California. It had been raining all day and my tan loafers were soaked from walking around in the rain all afternoon in Raleigh. I had spent the day with my sister exploring the city while we waited for our late afternoon flight. We would run inside stores seeking shelter from the winter rain. My toes were starting to wrinkle inside my cold wet shoes. I was excited but the kind that is filled with anxiousness and uncertainty. I kept thinking what’s my next step and planning, eventually, I decided to stop planning and enjoy that exact moment which I knew I would never be able to experience again. Continue reading “Taking Risks”

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Celebrating our LGBTQ Nepali Community

By: Richa Pokhrel

From Wikipedia

June was Pride month, a month to celebrate our LGBTQ community. In the US, pride month was started in 1969 after the Stonewall riots. Cities around the country, as well as the world, celebrate Pride Day.  In Nepal, the first official pride parade happened in 2010, but smaller parades had existed before then. It was organized by the Blue Diamond Society, Nepal’s first LGBTQ organization. The Blue Diamond society had to go through many hurdles before they were officially recognized. I am so thankful for their work in helping create LGBTQ friendly policies and being a safe place for people in Nepal. Continue reading “Celebrating our LGBTQ Nepali Community”

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Sorry Not Sorry

By: Kanchan Gautam

Artist: Ashley Lukashevsky

After inadvertently saying “I’m sorry” for the third time to a former coworker, he stopped me and exclaimed “Why are you apologizing to me? This was not your fault.” This question took me by surprise. I hadn’t realized I was apologizing to this man. Somehow “I’m sorry” had become a staple in my vocabulary and I tended to use it often without a second thought. I was a little flustered and immediately tried apologizing to which he laughed and said: “you don’t need to apologize for apologizing”. Yep, I tried to apologize for apologizing. Continue reading “Sorry Not Sorry”

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I Don’t Live There

By: Richa Pokhrel/@nepalichoriblog

Shame is a common feeling that a South Asian woman like me experiences over and over throughout our lifetime. Since my birth, this emotion has held on to me like a light scar that never fades. I’ve shaken it off a few times like a wet dog, but somehow it creeps back into my life. I’ve dealt with a fair share of shame in my 31 years and those memories still haunt how I behave today. For me, the first experiences of shame that I remember started when I moved to America at the age of 7. Continue reading “I Don’t Live There”

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Embracing My Anxiety

By: R. D.

Artist credit: Gemma Correll

I go find a quiet space. But on an open office floor, that’s hard to come by so I go to the one place I know,  a cubicle in the ladies’ room. I sit there with my hands on my head and slowly begin to cry. This is the thing, no one has said anything to me, so why was I finding everything overwhelming. The voice inside my head, dressed as a good friend loves to tell me things. It tells me I am loser for crying when I don’t even have a decent reason to. Leading up this breakdown, it was telling me how I was not ‘good enough’. The reason for where I was in my career was maybe, just maybe, because I am not good enough. It doesn’t matter what  loved ones see and say, the voice keeps saying there should have been hard evidence to prove I am good enough. I just want to take something, a magic pill, that would make all this go away. Continue reading “Embracing My Anxiety”

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Nepali Women of the Now: 3 More Women Who Inspire

By Kanchan Gautam

Somehow we have already made it into the second quarter of 2018, yet to me, 2017 still seems
like a few weeks ago. I am still reflecting back on 2017 and hoping 2018 is just as great of a year
for women as 2017 was. It seems like even though the Nepali Government banned Chaupadi, we
kept reading of the tragic deaths of young women’s death in these archaic menstrual huts. Nepal
also has yet to make amends to the constitution which discriminates women from conferring
citizenship to their children in the same capacity as men. Nepal still has a long way to go in
creating an equal footing for its female citizens to their male counterpart. This year I want to
focus on the positive and with that let’s turn this to someone women who made us proud to be
Nepalese Women. There were many Nepalese women who made headlines in various industries
nationally and globally last year. I hope this trend continues. Here are three women who have
made headlines in the recent years and continue to amaze us all with their positivity and
resilience. Continue reading “Nepali Women of the Now: 3 More Women Who Inspire”

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Postponed Another Moment

By Bandana Upadhya

Artist credit: Shiloh Sophia

“Oh no, oh no, oh no,” my frontal lobe repeated, the panic starting to travel from my brain to my throat, heart, and stomach. I escaped to the obvious place, the bathroom. A bathroom holds many secrets for a woman; its four walls can tolerate any truth, any amount of frustration and endless tear-laden and fear-driven moments. My husband shouted from the bed, “are you alright?” I don’t think I said the ‘Oh no’ out loud, or maybe I did. I think he was worried because I ran off, and even the least attentive man would notice their wife run away in the circumstances in which I ran. ‘No I am not alright,’ I wanted to scream. It usually takes me some time to reveal my vulnerabilities, so I pretended not to hear. He asked again. ‘Just leave me alone!’ I wanted to shout this time round. Instead I said, “I am fine”. The “fine” was unhelpful but it gave me a little more time with the mess in my head.   Continue reading “Postponed Another Moment”